Friday, November 16, 2007

Annika is finally 0!

We've finally gotten to my actual due date. This sweet baby is huge! I can't imagine that I'd still be carrying this big (little) babe inside of me.

This isn't the newest photo- but will give you some idea of how she's filling out and now looks like a big ole newborn at 7 lbs, 13 oz.

I'm incredibly exhausted. At no point in my life have I been as utterly, completely, coma-like sleep-deprived. When my folks were up here my mother took a shift or two of night feedings and then Anna's mom and aunt came up and helped out. Karen also came out from San Diego to cook us amazing, nutritious close-to-gourmet meals. Now that we're on our own and Anna's back at work (and really does need her sleep), I'm a zombie - and much less well nourished.

But heck, this has been incredible. Anna and I are totally, completely in love with this darling. We can't get enough of her - can't stop kissing her and cooing and holding her. (Now, the pumping and the diaper changes I can do without - but what a great system that the rest of the business makes up for the messy, inconvenient pieces!)

Yay!!!

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Annika Rose was born October 5, 2007!!!


She made it! At 34 weeks, Annika came into this world through a C-section. She weighed 5 lbs, 9 ounces and measured a longgg 17 3/4 inches.

This is our first photo together after a very difficult surgery. The placenta had to be cut through, the baby swam up, the doctor couldn't get a hold of her and finally caught her feet and pulled her out breech. We lost a ton of blood in the process.

We'll be here in the NICU hopefully no longer than 2 weeks total. Annika's doing great. Here's one of my favs below. More photos are on our Flickr account. There's much more to the story, but I'll let Anna tell it.

Anna:

We got up at 4:30 a.m. on October 5 because we were excited and nervous. We dressed up in paper clothes and fancy blue paper hats. We did visualizations and breathing exercises. Soon, Jerilyn was rolling down the hallway to the birthplace operating room. I was asked to wait in the hallway outside of the operating room while they gave Jerilyn a spinal to make her numb from the chest down.

A few minutes later, I heard Jerilyn saying loudly, "Wow! What an interesting feeling! Fascinating! I can't feel my legs!" She then proceeded to ask everyone if they had ever experienced this.

Dr. French, our OB, came out into the hallway to scrub up. She said, "What a great attitude and wonderful sense of humor Jerilyn has." After a lot of scrubbing we were ready to go. Jerilyn and I did visualizations and breathing exercises while a blue sheet separated us from the surgery. Soon, Jerilyn was squeezing my hand very hard and could hardly whisper from her mask. She was nausated at first, then felt extreme pressure on her stomach. She said that it felt as if people were jumping on her torso.

Dr. French called for a second doctor because Jerilyn was loosing so much blood and Annika had swam up towards Jerilyn's ribs. She then was able to grab one of Annika's legs and deliver her breech. It was a harrowing 30 seconds getting her out. Then we heard Annika cry.

She was absolutely beautiful! She has an elegant neck, long fingers and toes, Jerilyn's nose, and very chubby cheeks. I got to cut the cord! The nurses said that I could come up to the NICU (neonatal intensive care unit) in about a half an hour. Annika had lost a lot of blood (as did Jerilyn) and was quite pale.

I went back to sit by Jerilyn's head and I could tell she was in pain. Her spinal was wearing off quickly. The anesthesiologist gave her gas, just enough to keep her from going completely under. We were doing visualizations and breathing exercises and I was very close to her mask breathing in and out. ..

Then I was on the operating room floor with oxygen myself! I had been gassed, too! On the floor, I remembered a nurse saying that they had lost a sponge. (They thankfully found it up by Jerilyn's liver!)

Most people stay in the post op. room for an hour or so. Not Jerilyn. She was there for over four hours! After the gas had worn off, she was in very intense pain. Three doses of morphine did nothing. Finally, the pain killer, delotid worked. She had a drip for a day after her surgery.

Jerilyn is feeling much better now and is celebrating life not on bed rest. And, of course, we are
both celebrating the birth of our wonderful child. Let the journey begin!

Friday, September 21, 2007

Bed Rest - The Last Stage

I spent a lot of time last week hooked up to this particular machine (at right). Two sensors go around my stomach - one to monitor the baby's heart rate, and another to monitor contractions. The machine goes through piles and piles of paper.

How did it get to this point? Just before Week 31, I woke up in the middle of the night and dragged myself to the bathroom for the millionth time - to discover lots of blood. Anna was in Omaha helping with her stepdad (who's at home on hospice care right now). I calmly changed, packed a small bag, got in my car, and drove to the hospital. [Note: don't do this if this happens to you - call the ambulance - I was reamed out at the hospital for doing this.]

So bleeding is pretty much the norm with placenta previa - there can be anywhere from a little spotting, to life-threatening huge amounts of bleeding from the placenta breaking away from the uterus.

I was lucky. They kept me for 4 days to monitor the situation and then we got sprung from the hospital, only to face BED REST at home. I recline. I recline more. I get up to the bathroom (wooeeee!). I get yelled at by Anna ("Are you getting up? Do NOT get up!"). I eat. I recline. I sleep. I'm working about 3-4 hours a day, reading, reading reading, visiting with friends, and so far I've watched more tv than I have in probably the last 5 years combined. I'm actually looking foward to the new fall line-up. Kind of pathetic, but there you have it.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Tons of Updates

This is my Week 26 belly. Hard to believe I can get much bigger than that!! (oooo, but I will....)

We've got a baby girl in there, kicking and punching away at me. She's over 2 pounds and seems perfectly healthy!

The major catch so far is that of all the embryos I started out with, this one attached its placenta on the bottom of my uterus. This is called placenta previa. This baby came into my uterus because of the progress of medical science, and will leave that way as well via a C-section. I'm hoping that she'll stay in there at least until week 36 in mid October when they'll test the lung development and if everything looks good, will go right in and take her out of this big ole stomach in time for her to be an October baby.

Monday, May 28, 2007

Jerilyn getting HUGE


This is crazy! I'm actually at 15 weeks right now, and measuring at 17 inches, but here's what I looked like several weeks ago!

Monday, April 23, 2007

It's just one...

Feel really mixed about it... we're down to one. Funny how just a few months ago "one" was fantastic, and now, after this roller coaster ride (triplets! no. twins! no.) I'm feeling rather deflated.

Well, certainly a heck of a lot easier to have one... and this means Anna will probably get back to trying again sooner than later, so that's good.

But.... sigh.

Well, the one remaining little guy/gal is huge on the ultrasound. The doctor today was a bit surprised that I'm as big as I am (already pushing out of my pelvis). I've been putting on weight for multiples, so guess it's not too surprising the one left is fat and happy....

Not back in for another ultrasound for 4 more - long - weeks.

In the meantime, insane. Food cravings driving me - and Anna - up the wall and the nausea and fatigue clobbering me lately. Oh, the joys! (and we PAID for this!!!)

Well, before we know it, this too shall be past and over with... In the meantime, trying to enjoy what I can! (and hoping that 2nd trimester will bring my buoyancy back again.)

Cheers!

Sunday, April 8, 2007

Garden Analogies

It is spring and new life abounds.

Tiny baby plants are sprouting in our garden and you can just feel the energy, nourishment, growth, anticipation, and excitement all around us!

I am excited beyond belief! Is this really happening? We are going to have children! I go through moments of shock, disbelief, happiness, worry, and joy over and over again!

Just remember to breathe, water, meditate, help Jerilyn in every way possible, and enjoy the seasons...!

Saturday, April 7, 2007

Triplets? Twins? Just one?

We went in for our first ultrasound a bit early because I was off to Baltimore for 4 days last week and our doc suggested I get checked out before the trip. I was so nervous beforehand even I could hardly eat (so you know it was bad). Within seconds Dr. Archer goes from "oh, look, there's the heartbeat" to "oh and there's another one" to "and oh my gosh, there's a third!" I'm like WHAT?! Incredulous because I was all set to get bad news about the ONE I thought I had. And now I had THREE?! WHAT? I start hyperventilating - Anna coaching me to breathe in, breathe out. She's already falling in love with the little embryos ("Oh, isn't that the cutest thing?") while my heart rate races and I cry out for a paper bag to breathe into.

Just 2 days prior I had to take a day off work because the walk I had taken the day before had felt like running a marathon. I was EXHAUSTED - my muscles absolutely spent. Monday morning I got in the shower before work, my legs shaking, and decided there was no way I could get into work that day. I spent the day on the couch waiting for the cramping and bleeding to start. It didn't. And the ultrasound 2 days later showed 3 beating hearts. No wonder I felt like I had run a marathon - I'm supporting 3 little beings building hearts and other organs.

The latest news:
Yesterday we went in for a 2nd ultrasound. It looks like we're losing one of the embryos (what we had come to know as "Baby B"). Its little heart is beating too slowly. And "Baby C" - the one the docs thought may have had an identical twin - has 2 fluid sacs sitting around really close to it. So, what's going to happen when the placenta grows out towards the sacs? Or when the baby does? Will the sacs get in the way and prevent growth? So - this leaves us Baby A for sure. The heart beat is incredible to hear - very fast and steady. And now the heart beats are more than just a dot on the screen. We can see the arm buds, a bit of the spine.. it's amazing.

We go in for the next appointment at the end of April and we'll see how poor little Babies B and C are doing. Please wish us all luck!

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Saturday, March 10, 2007

It worked!

After FIVE years of trying/hoping/expecting/persevering - I finally got the call from the clinic. 3:45, Friday March 9, 2007. YES! YES I'M PREGNANT! I was shocked, speechless, left stuttering, "wah, what? really? are you sure?? is someone just pregnant or not pregnant? you mean, there isn't a gray zone - I just am?? You're sure??? What are the numbers? And that's good? Can you tell if we might have 2 or 3 embryos? (answer: most likely, just one.) Ohmygodohmygod. Breathe breathe. Nurse Gina (love her!) says, come in at week 7. Until then - stick to the IVF guidelines I got 2 weeks ago.

Crazy. It worked. Crazy.

We're so happy!

-jerilyn